MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE: This is a public service announcement. Those of you who know me, if you see a "greenish tint/glow" coming from me, please let me know; I need to monitor the levels of radiation I am emitting.
ABEG OOOOO!!!! I'M JUST KIDDING!!!! I'M NOT RADIATING ANYTHING!
Just a little humor to break up the "monotony" of the day and to keep a smile on your face!
So today, phase 2 of treatment started. For the next 6 weeks (thank God! At first the Doctor was saying 8), Monday thru Friday, I will be getting radiation to the left breast. Today was the first day. I'm not going to lie, it was a long walk to the Radiation center, I did have some FEAR ( False Evidence Appearing Real: this term belongs to Joyce Meyers; I can't take credit for it), thinking about the length of treatment, the burden of treatment, the possible side-effects of treatment. Hot piss catch me ooo !(literally. My kidneys get super excited when I'm nervous).
Laying on the table, half-naked, cold, and deriving no joy (TMI, but please bear with me) I kept playing over in my head this journey that WE have been on and I was like wow! It's been 5 months already.
(1) 10/21/13: Breast cancer diagnosis: shattering, devastating news
(2) 10/31/13: Surgery: Please tell me you've removed all the cancer and life goes back to normal (fat chance, that didn't happen).
(3) 12/30/13: Chemotherapy: Seriously, I have to go through all this????
(4) 3/31/14: Radiation: I CAN SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!!!
However, despite the shingles, nose-bleeds, skin changes, hair-loss, black finger & toe nails, ? forced menopause, initiation into the "Sisterhood of Hot flashing" (Nna mehn, hot-flashing with a wig on your head is absolutely no joke!! I almost whipped it off my head while seeing a patient last week. Instead I excused myself and left the room to compose myself). Talking about wigs, so I was seeing a patient last week and as we are talking about her medical issues, I felt sort of like a "cool breeze" on my forehead. I instinctively touched my forehead and the silly lace-front wig had shifted up and the wig cap was showing. Dilemma!!! What can a Black chick do but to say to the patient "excuse me, I need to fix my wig". Yes Sir!! I tugged and shifted it back into place. It was either that or let the wig fall off. HABA! I don't think so!! Medical appointment continued on. The look on the patient's face; PRICELESS!!!
But through it all, I thank God! I'm praising him through my situation, through my circumstances. I have received so much love and support from all of you that I am still in awe!! I thank God for all of you, for you all have through the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, made this journey easier for me. I could've never done it alone.
My last treatment will by God's grace be on May 9th, just in time to celebrate mothers day (5/11), my wedding anniversary (5/27) and for me to get ready for my birthday (5/31) HOLLA!!!!!
It is well, God is good and "there's a praise on the inside that I can't keep to myself"!! Soro m tonu Chukwu! He is carrying me through and I am holding on.
Thanks for reading, I'll keep you posted, and as always, thanks for taking this journey with me. You all are the "wind beneath my wings". God bless!
Chidinma
Psst! You know now; abeg, check your breasts!!
Monday, March 31, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Started From The Bottom Now We Here!!!
WHARRAP YA'LL????? Holla back at your girl!!! Don't stop gerrit, gerrit!!! Yeah ya!!! 4 cycles of chemotherapy completed!!! God is good all the time and all the time; GOD IS GOOD!!! In case anyone forgot, that is my name!! CHIDINMA!!
LET ME CLEAR MY THROAT.....
I just want to take this moment to thank the almighty Father, because if it weren't for his loving grace, I sure wouldn't be here right now.
I want to thank my baby daddy, my 3 musketeers, my parents, my siblings, my CT, Chi-town, H-town & B-town crazy cousins, my great in-laws, my awesome nuclear, extended & adopted family, wonderful friends, great co-workers, Daughters of Grace Prayer Ministry (Spiritual nourishment for breakfast 5:30 am Sun - Sat) and every single one of you for holding me down, praying for me, yes lifting me up and interceding on my behalf. Calling me, visiting me, cooking for me, encouraging me, loving me; what can a Black chick say? I'M BLESSED & HIGHLY FAVORED!
Drs. Deckers, Tannenbaum, Namadoukyst, the entire UConn Health Center cancer center staff; THANK YOU.
It has been a journey, and it is not over yet. I get a "3 week" vacation, then I will undergo 6 weeks of radiation Monday - Friday. However, through it all, I am grateful. I have come to truly appreciate the little things in life and I am learning (still work in progress) how not to stress over everything. More so I have learned that my plan A, B & C don't mean a thing if I have not placed God in everything and let him guide and direct me.
So in the words of Rev. Paul Jones (paraphrasing)
I've had some good days, I've had some hills to climb.
I've had some weary days, and some sleepless nights.
But when I look around and I think things over, all of my good days, outweigh my bad days;
I WON'T COMPLAIN!
The Lord has been so good to me, he's been so good to me; more than this old world or you could ever be. He dried all my tears away, turned my midnights into day, so I'll just say THANK YOU LORD, I WON'T COMPLAIN!!!
So the journey continues, thanks for travelling with me and helping me carry my bags. They are getting lighter and lighter each day.
Stay blessed, live & love. Smile more, laugh more. Speak "life" into your situation, into your circumstances. It's gonna be alright! Trust in God! Really! Taste the Lord and see that he is good! I am a living testimony of that.
PSST!!!! HAVE YOU CHECKED YOUR BREASTS???
Remain blessed,
Chidi
LET ME CLEAR MY THROAT.....
I just want to take this moment to thank the almighty Father, because if it weren't for his loving grace, I sure wouldn't be here right now.
I want to thank my baby daddy, my 3 musketeers, my parents, my siblings, my CT, Chi-town, H-town & B-town crazy cousins, my great in-laws, my awesome nuclear, extended & adopted family, wonderful friends, great co-workers, Daughters of Grace Prayer Ministry (Spiritual nourishment for breakfast 5:30 am Sun - Sat) and every single one of you for holding me down, praying for me, yes lifting me up and interceding on my behalf. Calling me, visiting me, cooking for me, encouraging me, loving me; what can a Black chick say? I'M BLESSED & HIGHLY FAVORED!
Drs. Deckers, Tannenbaum, Namadoukyst, the entire UConn Health Center cancer center staff; THANK YOU.
It has been a journey, and it is not over yet. I get a "3 week" vacation, then I will undergo 6 weeks of radiation Monday - Friday. However, through it all, I am grateful. I have come to truly appreciate the little things in life and I am learning (still work in progress) how not to stress over everything. More so I have learned that my plan A, B & C don't mean a thing if I have not placed God in everything and let him guide and direct me.
So in the words of Rev. Paul Jones (paraphrasing)
I've had some good days, I've had some hills to climb.
I've had some weary days, and some sleepless nights.
But when I look around and I think things over, all of my good days, outweigh my bad days;
I WON'T COMPLAIN!
The Lord has been so good to me, he's been so good to me; more than this old world or you could ever be. He dried all my tears away, turned my midnights into day, so I'll just say THANK YOU LORD, I WON'T COMPLAIN!!!
So the journey continues, thanks for travelling with me and helping me carry my bags. They are getting lighter and lighter each day.
Stay blessed, live & love. Smile more, laugh more. Speak "life" into your situation, into your circumstances. It's gonna be alright! Trust in God! Really! Taste the Lord and see that he is good! I am a living testimony of that.
PSST!!!! HAVE YOU CHECKED YOUR BREASTS???
Remain blessed,
Chidi
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